The girl i love

Why did I pick up the phone if I knew I wouldnt call why would I bother if u dont love me at all now why did I cry and wish that I would just die why would I care if u were to be hurt why can I feel your emotions why do I care about you if u dont care about me I guess its human nature to want something you cant have oh well its over now ill never see u again ill never hear your calls your screams your tears there are no tears for me for I was lost i died alone but forever thinking of you but this is a story and im still here I wish I wasnt but I have commitments I cant break I wouldnt be here if it wasnt for her she saved me im here because she saved me you can thank her or hate her either way I love her do u no how hard it is to stop loving someone a lot harder than to jump off a bridge I have thought of the first time when a great friend with problems of her own saved me and she cared enough to stop me then the girl I love did the same not long after and I realised she didnt feel the same way but cared enough to stop me I havent tried to jump since then she changed me I thought I was gone I was going to do it and was prepared to take a great friend with me but she stopped me made me think these things matter to me no possessions or that bullshit just this.