My Failed Attempt

I try to win against this unholy sin
but the fealing when the blade hits my skin
releases the dark pain from deep within
I cant function without it
and so theres no doubt about it
I cannot win

I've tried not to give in
but in the end
I've failed again

I've given up hope
just leave me alone
im addicted
and no one can fix it

** this is my first poem so I know its not that great but please tell me what u think