My Journal for the Day

I cried today knowing that I may never talk to you again
I laughed today remembering all the things you said
I screamed today hoping that you might hear
I sighed today wishing that you were near
I sang today spilling all my versus of my love
I looked up today wanting an answer from above
I thought today questioning if I should just say good-bye
I wrote today knowing I never could no matter how hard I try
I punished myself today cause I know I should but I don't have control
I stared at the floor today wishing I could get this ache out of my soul
I banged the walls today six times for your name
I wished today hoping you would feel the same
I lit a candle today, blew it out and said another wish out loud
I kicked and punched the wall today, then wanted to choke myself cause I'm not proud
I couldn't stand this today, it's driving me insane
I had all these thoughts in my head
today slowly draining my brain
I lived another day today wondering about tomorrow and what I'll do
I slowly died inside today knowing I did all of this because of you