I Need My Hero

Dear old friend
I don't know what to say
The end for me is nigh
This choice is not mine, but yours
If I should live or die
Out through the window
The leaves are falling
And I know how they feel
Dead and lifeless
The only way is down
I feel like one of them
About to hit the bottom
We talk about "the bottom"
But what is it really?
Is it the ground or below?
The belly of beast
The furnace in hell
My winter is beginning now
My soul is cold and hungry
Just looking for someone to love me
The way you did before
I can't stop crying
For fear of deafening silence
I feel like dying
Just to spare me the violence
Its not physical
But no-one seems to understand
I put on a brave face
For the sake of my friends
I don't want them to worry
All my smiles
They're every one of them fake
I know you can see it
To everyone else its opaque
You one told me you can read me
Better than a three year-old's book
So if you think that's true
I think you should take a look
You've tried so often to leave this world
And every time, I cry
Believe me if I had the guts
Then I would do it too
No-one would believe me though
That's why I say nothing
But blades often look real friendly to me
As I know they do to you
But still the tears I cry for you
Are rolling down my cheeks
I'm praying for you
As I do every day
I make a promise to myself
To try and keep you safe
You wouldn't mourn me
And please don't worry
For if I'm gone
I'll still be watching over you
There's nothing left for me
Except the one who can save me
From my worst enemy, myself
These words are not cryptic
They're not hard to decipher
Just remember me as you would like
As I sink into cold, black oblivion
And become forgotten with the Sun
And please don't cry
As I whisper to you
My final goodbye
With love forever xxxxxx