Not Again

I can't believe this
I've lost another one
Crying on the phone
Screaming at God for what he's done

Number four died December seventh
Four in this past year
Another funeral to attend
I can not cry anymore tears

"She's in a better place"
"She tried with all her might"
I can't take this anymore
I want her here tonight

She is my first memory,
Who now will show me the way?
How can i forgive this man,
For taking her life that day

Not yet an adult
Most of my loved ones are lost
Bible says life is a gift
But at what cost?

*I'm trying, trying, trying but I don't think I'm getting anywhere.*