True Me

I know I should be writing
happy, pink thoughts
but that just wouldn't be me
for I am
just as dark as you
filling up with pain and misery
a disappointment away from blowing up
to the next person who makes me mad
I know I'm loved
but I feel so hated
and misunderstood
I know I am a bowl full of happy thoughts
for that is just a mask
a happy face is so far away
for that is all you see
But look deep into my skin, my eyes
you'll see the true me
just as dark as can be