I hope you find your perfect life
the one where i am gone
the one in which all your hopes and dreams come true and i lie broken in the dark
i hope i find my way
find the strength to leave someday
i know I'm miserable
i know you make it that way too
just wish you understood
all the pain you put me through
the lies and the hate gets to me deeply
i cry in my room for hours straight
you don't notice because you just don't care.
my eyes they glisten, shining bright
theres no hope left, theres no light
the candle went out my strength diminished.
my muscles shake, my hearts beats loudly.
i wish you could see what your doing to me.
the people they ask, but they really don't know.
i try to explain, but it doesn't matter
their hate still shows
i talk and i cry and i talk some more.
my pillows wet full of tears, my beds a mess, from my shaking fears.
sad songs and cookie dough
are my only friends, the only ones that ease my hurting.
i learned to hide it, to paint on a smile.
every day i laugh, but every night i cry.
just waiting till that day when each one of us will eventually die.
