Drowning

I look in the mirror and to me i fall apart nothings right about my body its all fat, my face is filled with pimples, no guys turn to look my way, i feel so alone, the nights soon turn to day, my arms soon have no feeling, there cut up and bruised so bad, you make me feel so sad, if only i was skinny, if only i wasn't fat, maybe if i stop eating i could change that, I'm drowning I'm darkness I'm drowning in fear I'm covered in ugly i wanna disappear, run so far and never return, i wanna jump off a building and watch my body decay, I'm drowning in the puddles, the puddles of blood, into acoma i feel like i wanna shoot this gun I'm helplessly lost, theres nothing you can do I'm gonna pull the trigger I'm gonna see this through, the pain has taken over my body and soul don't tell me I'm pretty thats kinda old, life isn't short its pretty long why live it, its like a never ending sad song, just drowning in confusion.