The Plan

Strings?
Chairs?
Posin?
Pills?
Knives?
Fire?
Water?
Heights?
or bullets?

So many ways to do it, but which way is the easiest, without failure. Drugs will be too much pain, it\'ll take to much time.

I would like to take poison, but hard to find posion around where i live.

I would take the pills, but it\'ll just make me tired and sleepy. This would also take too much time.

Knives are good too, but i wouldnt want my parents to clean up all my blood. It\'ll be too harsh for them. I cant let taat happen.

Heights are good, but i wouldnt want my neighbors seeing my dead body outside, and think that my parents arent normal. Because thats not true. Im the only one whos unique in this family. I\'m the odd one as people would say.

Fire is good, but it will destroy too many things.

Water. Water is my nature friend. Water. Drowning under water willl make me happy, but it\'ll be too much mess.

But bullets. Bullets would be nice, quick and easy, justs pull the trigger and theres a hole in my head. But that wouldnt work, because my parents will know.

I guess theres only one set of on option. I\'ll just make a loop around my nake and tie myself up high off from the chair, and pretend that i\'m flying. Then a second later, I\'ll be still just dangling on the rope, with a smile on my face.

They wouldnt know, would they? This is simple. Not loud.No screaming. Just peaceful. They\'ll just find my dead body in my room when they come in, to wake me up. It\'ll be too much pain for them, too much stress for them to take.

But sorry. Im really sorry. I thoght I could handle it. They cant chase me in any way. they are too good to be in hell. But im sure they\'ll be happy living in the havens when they die for living on this creation for atleat 100 years.

I know im just a selfish girl who doesnt care about anything else then herself. SOrrry, Im sorry, but i had to do it. It was the only way that i\'ll feel r e a l .