We should never have left you all alone
We yelled see you later and went off to a world of our own
While getting in the car I gave a quick smile
Then pulled out for the short trip of 20 miles
I sat there with my dad watching the show
Through all these events I did not know
I kinda grinned when I saw him crying
I hadn't been told that you were dying
I remember all the fun I was having
I was playing with Josh and couldn't stop laughing
I hadn't seen your car flipped on the road
So all this time I did not know
When my brothers and sister seemed upset
I knew there was something I just didn't get
When daddy told us we had to be strong
I started to understand something was wrong
It all started to come together but very slow
I started to figure out the things I did not know
Yet I still waited all night to hear the door
You were coming home I was sure
I didn't really understand the concept of death
I didn't realize you had taken you last breath
This is a part of life we can't control
You were gone for good and I did not know
I would never again hear your sweet voice
I had to accept this I had no choice
All the things I wanted to say but didn't know how
I would give anything to tell you now
You didn't get to see all your children grow
There was still so much we did not know
If just for one day I could have you back
I would tell you bout everything but mostly Zach
There is so much in our lives that you have missed
I could probably make a hundred page list
But I guess God decided it was your time to go
Why he chose you I still don't know
I hope you know you were more than a mom but a great friend
I am just thankful for each second we have from beginning to end
No matter how high the pain may pile
I walk through each day and keep a smile
Will you be forgotten the answer is no
When will I see you again... I do not know
There is one thing I know you feel up above
That is all of your children's eternal love
I will one day again see your smile that glows
And that is one thing that I do know
