Behind This Mask

Because of you I am so depressed
But you will never know
Because all of the pain inside of me
It's something I do not show

I live a double life
Believe it or not it's true
I wish you could know the real me
But you just don't have a clue

I want to be happy
Instead of always pretending
But my I am so depressed
And my heart is in need of mending

Someday I hope to escape
All of this pain
Although the only thing I know
Is it's you that I can blame

Every night before I go to sleep
I think about your lies
And it takes all the strength I got
To not break down and cry

So please do me a favor
It's the only one I'll ask
Stop lying to me and making me upset
I don't want to keep hiding behind this mask

© 2005 Jen-Jen