Are you happy now?

I hate myself
i really do
i want to die
i don't want to cry
I've lost so much
you have no clue
the things I've done
i can't undo
I've lost your trust
and the hurts
but what hurts worse is i can't cut
promises were made to be kept
but since then all I've done is wept
you tell me your lost feelings
are you trying to hurt me?
cause it is working if you are
i am lost
my heart and soul are gone
i have so many scars
it's unbelievable
one question is all i ask
are you happy now my life is such a mess?

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