JEALOUSY

Suddenly I feel so insecure, I have lost all my trust
I notice how he looks at beautiful girls, he must lust
I know he admires women more pretty than me
Sometimes I think he would rather have then and flee
I do no feel appreciated, like I did in the past
I'm confused how he has lost feeling so fast
It is the first time I have realized what we have got
He is everything I have ever needed and ever sought
It has become so clear that just as I have arrived to this place
He is already over me and he has given up the chase
I feel so alone, so stupid, so incredibly unprepared
How have I lost him, it is like he never cared
I thought this was it this time, no more dating
but now all I have ahead is lots of games and waiting

Why does he feel the need to go on without me
the first chance he got, he jumped back in to the sea
He is always around other girls, this must be exciting
I try not to care or worry, that only leads to fighting
He loves to get away, to go out with all of his boys
They do not have girlfriends, to them girls are sex toys
This causes me to worry and question if he is the same
Knowing he has cheated before, myself is who I must blame
I always catch him staring, those girls really make his head turn
I pretend not to notice, I stand at his side so stern
So much competition around me, and probably when I am not there
I never want to go out without him, it is just not fair
I wish I could be ignorant and have not one single doubt
Them my heart would not have a thing to be in pain about