Every time i make a new friend,
I seem to so something that changes their mind,
I try so hard to be myself,
But I'm scared that you'll leave,
Just like everyone else who left me here,
It hurts so bad to think of loosing you to,
So i try to to get to close
So when you leave i wont hurt myself.
People wonder why i do it,
But its just another way of lying like everyone else..
If everyone else is just as fake,
Then why does it matter what i do?
No one will be there to get the point,
Because by the time they would, they already have left.
After a while i begin to wonder
Why be myself when people don't like it?
Whey not be fake and not let anyone know whats wrong?
Not like the understand anyways..
everyday ill just paint on a smile,
Maybe then they'll last a while.
What they don't get is that when the paint wares off,
They could be the reason the smile stays.
all i need is a true friend,
Someone who doesn't back away when the times are hard,
Someone who Will be there to help me
be happy when I'm sad
to laugh when i don't thin k its possible.
A real friend wouldn't give up,
They would stick by your side,
Until they never had enough.
If i had a friend like this,
Maybe i would not always be sad,
Maybe i could get rid of my fake smile and laugh,
And have a real one like everyone else.
... I had a friend once like that,
But then i left and everything changed,
from happy to sad,
i never changed back.
Without her there, i learned I'm weak,
And need someone to lean on when i cant hold myself up.
Not someone who says they know, but really they don't care,
I need someone who really is there.
Someone who will notice when I'm sad,
who can tell somethings wrong just by a look on my face.
Because friendship is not something form the outside,
But it comes from the truth deep in the heart.
