Unashamed

I am unashamed of the feelings I have for you
My heart develops another break every day
Yet shamelessly I cannot get you out of my mind
All my life I have been independent and proud
Yet your love cloaks me and chokes me like a shroud

I cannot walk away and stop the pain
Try as I might I cannot bring myself to say goodbye
No one has ever gotten behind the wall I built
Somehow not only did you get behind the wall
You managed to grab my heart and a ball

I would sooner die than swallow my pride
With you I find myself falling to my knees
Pride cast aside and honor out the window
What in the world has happened to me?
It no longer feels like my soul is free

I do not understand the things I am going through
Is this what happens when you open your heart?
I will never understand why people let others in
Only a masochist of the worst kind would go through this
Then forget all about the pain you cause because of a tender kiss

Rip my heart out and throw it away as it is defective
They say love is not supposed to feel like this
Love is supposed to be a blessing from the heavens
All I know is that I have a horrible pain deep inside
Maybe it is not love but my severely wounded pride?