I just want to stand up and scream until my lings give
Why can't you just let me grow up and live
I've spent my life having to be stronger than the rest
But sometimes i wish that this was all just a test
I pray every night that these fights will just end
And spend the next day just trying to mend
All of these wounds that happen in this house
I have to hide my feelings from you, be quiet as a mouse
I just wish that someone you could find peace
I wish that all these terrifying night would cease
The yelling the crying it's too much for me to keep inside
The pain, the suffering, it's too much for me to hide
I try so hard I'm sorry I'm just not good enough
I'm barely holding on, its just so hard to stay strong and be tough
Days go by, and they seem to be alright
But the pain returns when i come back each night
It hurts so much to say, but i HATE living with you
I love you, but i hate this life, i hurt deep inside, i really do.
I try to pretend, i try to smile and hide the feelings so deep
But my only way to hide from the hurt here is to sleep
i want to show you, want to tell you, want to make it all better
But i just end up making it worse, and my eyes just get wetter
So i have this life away from here, I'm happy and there are no tears
But i hate to think that i have to keep hiding this for years
It got worse, and then better, now its worse again
One again, I'm the one trying to find a way to stop the rain
I'm sick of being hurt and I'm tired of being scared
You won, you made it, my life is eternally scarred
But you can't stop me. I'm going to find happiness
Don't know when or how, but i will get out of this mess.
