Until I Die

I can't take this life anymore,
There is way too much to explain.
I try to calm my nerves,
But there is too much pain.

I try to hold everything in,
I smile with shame.
I cannot go on,
I guess I'm the one to blame.

You are the one that caused this,
But you taught me a lesson.
I am torn for what you did,
But you don't know what you're missing.

As I stand here all alone,
Watching the days go by.
I will not rest,
Until I finally die.