You dont believe me but its reality

I sit here contemplating the reasons
why
you dint believe me
and thats the same reason why i want to die

You dint believe me
when i tell you he touched me
you dint believe me
when i tell you he grabbed me

I line up the pills
75 in all
sleeping pills, pain pills, depression pills
all preparation for my last fall

you dint believe me
when i tell you he touched me
you dint believe me
when i tell you he grabbed me

He's our uncle
you're my sister
he touched you too
Or did you forget?

You dint believe me
when i told you it hurts to see you
over there
you dint believe me
when i ask why you dint care?

I take my pills
and take my big knife
vertically slit my wrists
and end my life

DO YOU BELIEVE ME NOW?
HOW MUCH PAIN I WAS IN?
BECAUSE OUR OWN UNCLE
COMMITTED THE ULTIMATE SIN?

But no
i was the one to blame
I'm the one who was wrong
I'm the one you should shame

I've taken my life
but he's already taken my soul
I'm thankful for this knife
because i dont hurt anymore