I still miss you..just not as much as i used to

The lies that were told soon became true to me..and everything you did..i excepted because i knew thats who you would always be..i cried at night..not because i was happy..because i knew we were wrong..everything we had..was actually northing.. i Begin to live on the edge.. and soon things became so wrong... everything i once looked at as good.. soon made me sad.. but yet i still had to be with you..still had to forgive you.. because you were everything i wanted... you made me feel good about my self..well at least i thought you did..soon i had to begin to realize.. i wasn't becoming this way just because i wanted to.. everything you put me threw.. turned me into something.. I'll never understand... your lies.. your broken promises.. i cant explain it all.. i dont know what to do now..i dont know how to let you go.. i haven't learned yet.. && i am sure maybe someday i will... i dont see what it is that i love so much... i havent found it yet.. but for some odd reason.. i blame myself..i had so many chances.. to let you out of my life.. but yet... i didnt... i belived every word you said..ignored my friends when they tried to help... && now i am the one dealing with this..not you..me..you dont care what you have done..because your lies are still going on till this day.. so now i'm just going to try FINALLY let you go..