To strong for to long...

Ive been to strong for to long,
And Ive finally let go,
My secret pills and scars,
I have decided to show.

It took a lot of thought,
But I couldnt take much more,
To many times the blood has dripped,
And landed on the floor.

Im fed up of living a lie,
And painting on this smile,
Cause when I turn to walk away,
The tears fall all the while.

All of my life,
Ive been considered the worst,
Lying to my mother,
Even stealing out her purse.

But way back then,
Things were so hard,
Peer pressure got me into trouble,
Al those memories left me scarred.

I just didnt realise,
How quickly things could change,
One minute im all happy,
Then next im feeling raged.

But enough is enough,
And all my hope has gone,
Im not sure what im doing,
But where lifes leading me, is wrong.

I wish I could erase the things,
That makes me so ashamed,
Al my life Ive had the worst,
And its me that I do blame.

But im picking up the pieces,
And trying to put them right,
I will not stop this endless struggle,
Im putting up a fight.

thank you for reading this-please comment and tell me what you think?xxx