Envy

I envy those who haven't had their heart broken
I envy those who haven't had to b a mother
I envy those who don't feel like their chokin
I envy those who don't have to bother.

I wish i went through with all the blood
I wish i wasn't scared of it
I wish i didn't feel like such a dud
I wish that first cigarette i never lit.

I want to forget about u
I want to tell her everything
I want to cancel everything I'm about to do
But i cant i need to do everything

So I'm walking to the kitchen
And grabbing a knife
All my friends i sorry for ditchin
But i have to end this pathetic excuse for a life.