My Baby Girl

I remember the time
We were playing truth or dare
I asked if she liked me
And she said, "yes I love you"

I gave her a kiss
And held her tight
I vowed never to let go
Or give in without a fight

Two months later she got sick
And rushed to the ER.
I let her know I was there
And I wouldn't be far.

They said she was much more
Sick than we thought.
She'd been hiding her pain
But now she was caught.

They said she'd only last
Six months or less
But there was the option of treatment,
They said that would be best

The catch was it costed
Way more then expected.
And she didn't want pills,
And her wishes we respected.

Today was when I found her
Lying beside her bed.
She was cold and barely breathing,
She was practically dead.

The phone lay beside her,
She'd been talking to a friend.
It shook me up to think
If it'd been me on the other end.

I called 911
And just held her tight
Praying this wasn't it,
It couldn't be tonight!

I held her close to my body
And tried to keep her warm.
I tried not to think of her dying.
Without her I'd be torn.

I looked deep into
her tired eyes
and I know it's time
to say my goodbyes.

Her breathing is shallow,
I can see her struggle.
Her focus is slipping
and it can only mean trouble.

As I sit by her side,
and try not to cry,
I can't help but ask,
Why her God, why?

She was always the strong one,
the one with no fears.
She was always there,
to wipe away our tears.

I never saw her weep,
she never showed her pain.
Never until now,
were at her deathbed she is lain.

Being barley kept alive,
dying before my eyes,
I never thought I would be sitting here,
watching as she dies.

She takes a sharp breath,
and reaches out her shaky hands,
fighting tears in her eyes,
I see she finally understands.

She understands her fate,
from this deadly disease,
at only fourteen,
the end, she now sees.

It kills me to see her
acting like this,
she had always been so strong,
and will be so missed.

She closes her eyes,
a tear rolling down her face.
"Barry, I'm scared,
she says with disgrace.

The first time anyone
had heard her admit it,
after all these years of suffering,
she had finally said it.

I cannot say goodbye,
it's too hard to believe.
I don't understand,
why my best friend has to leave.

i know i must join her
when she ascends to the skies,
togeather once again,
in heaven we'll lie