I believed you every time you said you loved me
I believed you every time you vowed to stay,
And then left me broken every time you walked away
I pretended to be strong
So you didn't get the satisfaction of knowing
You caused me so much pain
I pretended not to care
That you used me as a player
In your selfish little game
All I ever wanted was for you to love me
The way I love you
But I guess that's too much to ask
I reached out to you for years,
But all you did was reveal the coward
Behind the steadfast mask
I wish I could hurt you, the way you hurt me
I wish I could show you all you failed to see
I wish I could make you feel the pain I felt
Every time you crushed my dreams
I wish I could hate you,
But life doesn't work that way
So now I am trapped here
Knowing that I'm the mistake you made
The one thing you wish you could take back
The regret you live with, day after day after day
The cutting realization that I will always love you
Without even a simple acknowledgment in return
Haunts my thoughts, haunts my sleep
I want to hurt you,
I want to hate you...
But I Love you too much to hurt you,
Too much to hate you
And I guess that's the way
It's always going to be
