Sitting in pain

More cuts surround my body
trying to compete with the pain inside
my heart is in more pieces
broken again i just wanna hide

sick of hurting i beat myself
thinking it'll make it heal
but who am i kidding
this pain want disappear its real

the tears that stain my face
they come from deep inside my soul
the hurt they carry around as they fall
is whats preventing me from being whole

I'm scared to let people in
don't wanna let people out
stuck in the middle of a never ending battle
screaming but no- one can hear me shout

feeling like running away
but instead i brave life
walking with a false smile each and every day
waiting for someone to save me from this strife

one day the scars will heal
the pain inside will fade
my heart will learn to love again
i wont choose to find comfort in the blade

but until that day comes
i will sit here in pain