No one knows the real me

I sit beside the water
of the darkened lake
I look at myself and think
that I'm such a fake

under all this make up
without it myself I dispise
but I cant show the real me
because I'm hidden behind these lies

no one knows my passed
its hidden by the fame
just because I never talked about it
I lived my life in shame

I had never delt with it
I've just pushed it all aside
but I still can't get over it
even though I've tried

I stay hidden by this mask
hidden behind these lies that set me free
but I am a living fake
No one knows the real me