Its all my fault

Staring at the skies
there the stars i see
they are millions of eyes
all watching me

mum walks in the room
and sits on the bed
she notices all
of the tears i have shed

yous are over aren't you
i ask her with a sob
yes we are honey
your father is such a slob

i cant believe i married him
i couldn't have done any worse
so young and so dumb
damn this life is a curse

with that i cried harder
this is all my fault
if i didn't complain
no one would get hurt

honey its not your fault
its his for being late
it was dark and empty
you could have been raped

he promised me
he would be on time
but work is the only important
thing in his eyes

you know he does not love us
he loves his work more
we are always second best
thats why i don't love him anymore

with that she left the room
and shut the door behind her
i wish we could go back to like it was
like when i was younger

we were always happy
even though we were poor
its sad i can hardly
remember those days anymore

there i did it again
iv stuffed something else up
this time its someones marriage
what else can i screw up?

things are not the same
there has been no divorce
but it really scares me
i think it is worse

now i hear them fight
its always about me
normally money for Kokoda and cadets
they always disagree

they put on a happy face
when we are out
as soon as we get home
thats when they shout

many days i wonder
should i run away
because i cant live here
when nothing is OK