If only, If only!

If only, If only
You see my tears fall
If only, if only
You'd catch me when i fall!

See me hide the pain in my soul,
Watch another fake smile crawl along my lips,
As you see my body coming to terms with to mess of my life

Do tears actually stain my broken face
As plasters tear from my already broken heart
Does envy leak from my body as i see others happy

If only, If only
i had you to hold
Instead of this plastic smile
My face unfolds!

If only, If only
I wipe the tears from my eyes
So crimson and glittery
Like the midnight Sky's

Why rip out my heart?
Did you love me from the start ?
If only, If only!