Moment between a Blink and a Tear

I found myself lost
in that unforgiving moment
stuck between a blink and tear.

My heart ceased its beating
but only for a fleeting minute
as i began to search for air
i cried out my lungs screaming
crying for you to come back
but you were already gone

I didn't understand.
i wanted to see through this
there had to be and explanation
but i could see nothing passed
my persisting tears
drenching me in a storm
a rising sea that wouldn't dry.
the time when my resistant eyes
could not hold back those despairing droplets.

I stood there staring at you
you motionlessly gaze back
in that moment i couldn't decide
whether to fall into your arms
or rush away from you as quick as i could.

My eyes were crying out to you
"Why? Why!"
and for once i couldn't seem to find
any trace of a smile lingering on your face.

You said it so easy but i made it so hard
I guess you never knew my stare
could lead to such dismay.
when in that moment i wasn't sure
If i could blink my eyes
without pouring out the rain and sadness.

and here I lay awake again
with tear stains on my pillow
when i remember that sight
of us standing still, our eyes lock.
stuck in between that moment
of a blink and a tear.