I Must Be

Was I walking around with my eyes shut?
Could I not see right from wrong and which way was up?
I must be the dumbest girl around
To have not seen that we were hell bound

What was I thinking? Was I thinking at all?
I wanted you to be everything and I let myself fall
I don't even read my horoscope anymore
I just don't believe it the way I did before
I must be real pathetic to let you change me
It's embarrassing to admit that I miss how we used to be

Just a little boy, that's all that you are
If you were close enough I'd hurt you, but you're too far
I must be blind because I didn't see her in your eyes
And I must be deaf because I didn't hear the truth in your lies

Even though you've hurt me I don't hate you
I'm angry but hating you isn't the right thing to do
I'm too good to come down to your level now
I'm gonna be a bigger person than you somehow
I must be too much woman for a little boy like you
Because you couldn't handle me you didn't know what to do

I still hurt inside because of what you've done
But I'll stay brave, I won't turn away and run
I must be the strongest woman ever to live
To be able to stand tall in front of you after what you did

I must be amazing, beautiful, and strong
To be able to forgive you after you did me wrong
I must be so much more than you must have seen
Because even though you tell them you hate me, I choose not to be mean

I must be more of a woman than even I knew
Because even though I'm fighting feelings, I'm letting go of you