Rainy in New York- First Half

Now I want to warn everyone that wishes to read this poem that it is really long. And I mean long! Go ahead and scroll down to take a look for yourself. If you do manage to read this, I would like some honest votes and comments. I put a lot of thought into this poem so I just hope you enjoy reading it. Thank you so much. And since its too long, I have to make it into two halves because it wont fit on the site page. And I mean two halves, not two parts. Its all just one poem.

Over the mild skies
In the towers
That run away with your breath
There is a someone
That is no one
Lying curled in a nest

This nest is made
Up of strings and straw
Chains hold me back
From grasping what I need
Too bad Im a mere hollow wisp
Too bad a someone I lack

I look out beyond the skyline
Through the crying window
Tears of clarity down the glass
Face in my hands
Kneeling on the floor
Soon my life wont last

But even now
As I fall into memories
I end up the fool
The rejection
And then Im thrown out
Into a winter like cold

So hence forth
Ill try not to cry
Just because you left me
I cant waste my life away
And weep you back
But without you I cannot be

There would be no sense
In trying to be noticed
I just need to rest my head
But I need to see you my love
I wish I could see you running violent streets
Just to find you in my bed

But I can only manage
To see you in every object
I cant live with this monster in my dreams
I wipe off beads of sweat
As my searching heart
Is torn away from me at the seams

But soon I decide to go look for you
Just to kiss your smooth, sweet lips
And be with you for the rest of my days
But now I can remember your very words of promise
And even if they werent true
I believed them anyway

Finally I manage to grasp the courage
To confront you face to face
And I arise from the shadowed carpet floor
I think about what to believe
What to say
As I walk toward the mistrustfully locked door

I unlatch the locks and go through
Then I run around the halls
As my open door grows smaller behind me
Finally I run down the stairs
As if it meant saving my life
Even though that was how it was going to be

With a sunshine burst out of the buildings front doors
I run across the street
In the pouring rain
I dont mind it at all
Fed up cars stop with a screech and a honk
As I go threw the car infested lane

I run corners
And streets
And I almost got my reward
Almost ran over
Almost dead
Almost lost you

I come with a stop at a midnight caf�?�©
And I see you
I see you
I see you
I see you
I can almost see you

I can almost see you alone
Alone by yourself
But yet
In your arms you hold another
Another
And this I do not get

As you both breathe sweet love
Upon each others faces
As your lips touch
I cant understand
What I did wrong
At least not much

I drop on my knees on the jagged avenue
And I give up in cries
Youve given birth to a chaotic burn
And it burns away your promise
The fire tries to control my mind
As again the lies return

And kiss after kiss
After kiss
After kiss
After kiss
After kiss
Becomes a hell with no bliss

But the sight of your joy
Is so familiar
It was when your lips still belonged to me
I can still keep it recognized in my head
But even that very memory
Is more of a drowning sea

But the satisfaction
I will not give you
For through this piercing sight
And despite the blade
Youve so carelessly placed in my heart
Ill take out the knife and cut through this night