When i close my eyes

When we blink,
when we sleep,
we close our eyes,
sometimes even just to think.

when we close our eyes,
we shut reality out,
our hopes and dreams take over,
time just comes and flies by.

when i closed my eyes before,
i would see you and me,
living our dreams,
now i only see what i saw that night by the door.

i just stood there and stared at your back,
into the darkness,
our surroundings disappear,
all i see is your pain, and the things we lack.

you glanced back to look at me,
all the fear, pain and all the other emotions in the darkness,
i couldn't do anything to make it go away,
all i could do was watch and let things be.

so now I'm scared to sleep,
scared to blink,
confused and lonely,
remembering how frightened i was to weep.

seconds, minutes, hours, days continue to pass by,
and i still remember the pain in your eyes,
but i return to relive that moment,
whenever i close my eyes.