Confused

When you are around
I just want to hug you
but when you get mad
I just want to leave you

I love you so much
you care for me deeply
but i think about what you have done
I just can't forget it

I don't want to kiss you
I don't want to be with you
I don't even want to see you

You make me so mad
but my heart still loves you
I wish i could make up my mind
and love to be with you
or be free and do what I please

You tell me I am beautiful, perfect, and kind
But then later say I am unthoughtful and not worth your time

I wan't you to do something wrong so I can have a reason to leave you
but when I think about it you have given me plenty of reasons already

Why I am still with you I still do not know
Hopefully soon you will see all of my pain
I know if you did you wouldn't want to hurt me

I wish I could tell you this all to your face
But I won't and I can't because I know it would make you sad
Even though I do want to leave, it doesn't mean that I don't love you

If only you could see all the pain you cause to me.