Life hurts...

I closed my eyes,
As a tear drop fell,
No words came out,
But I spelt out hell.

Yea thats right,
Hell is my life,
All the lying and heartache,
Scars left from a knife.

I laid down my head,
And I thought for a while,
All happy times had gone,
I no longer can smile.

I pulled my hand to my face,
And let out a sigh,
I cant take much more,
All I do is cry.

I wonder one day,
If ill ever let go,
Pull up my sleeve,
Put my feelings on show.

Would anyone care?
Or would they just move on?
Id be out of their lives,
Thats it, id be gone.

See people dont realise,
How much Ive been through,
And how it effects each day,
Living a lie, being you.

But as perusal,
Ill never come first,
People will keep hurting me,
So ill always consider the worst.