Why?!

Dear Mike,

Why did you do this to me? You are the whole world to me! You said I was your angel, that you would never leave, but now all that changed didn't it... I've known that all my mistakes were preventable. That I should have NEVER let you go, but you were killing me inside. All your lies were tearing me apart. I couldn't even breathe when I found out you were dating another girl! Said we'd be together forever, and you loved me. Where is all the love now when you're dancing with another girl? It seems each week you take a different part of me. Making it so hard to forget you, to forgive me for blaming this whole thing on myself. I never let you go even when I'm with another guy, I always think of you, thinking that we should be together. I went out with your best friend, I liked him allot. We went to the dance I saw you dance with my best friend. You promised me that you would dance, dance with me and only me. I wanted us to be together forever. I couldn't take it anymore. You took my life away. You killed your own little angel! No one could understand the way that I loved you not even my own brother. I thought I was just confused that I was so desperate that I couldn't get over you. Then I realized it wasn't me it was how I felt. I still don't understand. You said we'd always be there for each other, but when things got complicated all you could do was cry. You were never there for me, never picked me up after I fell down all you did was push me down further. I couldn't breathe under all the pressure, the depression that you put me through. Can't you see that I loved you? I spent my nights trying to cry myself to sleep or even dieing. Can't you see that all this has happened for a reason, the reason that we should be together? I know you might be mad, I know that I hurt you too. But you don't know the better half. I always dreamt of our future, our little kids running around screaming with joy in there lungs. It won't happen now. Our kids are dead they were never formed. You left me there all alone; with no heart I can't even trust myself. Can't be alone for more then a minute, always thought that being dead would be better. Being in heaven, where I know people will treat me right. Treat me better then you. Better then you even treat yourself, how can you love yourself after you have done this so many times. I can even see the torture in your eyes. Having a girl locked in a basement. Making your every move just so she could die with the thought of loving you to much to care how you don't even treat her right. Why do you this to every girl you meet? Say you love her then you leave. Every time you say you love her you kill a part of me. Killing me until I'm gone, I can feel it in my blood that it won't be too long.

*****(yes i know its not a poem, but i had to put it on)*****