You hurt me so much
But I refuse to cry
I promised myself
I would never cry over a guy
No one should be worth my tears
But I have to admit
You’re getting very near
I love you so much
But you don’t love me back
You put me down
But I have no comebacks
You said you don’t love me
But I refuse to cry
I can’t let you know
That I’m dieing inside
To me,
Crying is a sign of weakness
And you should never make me weak
Even though I know you’re wrong for me
I can’t seem to leave
You used to call me beautiful
Now you say I’m ugly
You talk to me more aggressively
Even though you lie
I refuse to cry
I can’t let it show
That you’re killing me inside
You think of the most hurtful words
And say them to me
I don’t know what it is
But something’s making me not leave
With every tear I want to cry
It’s like a knife stabbing me inside
If I let out one tear
The end will be near
Because it will turn into obsession
I want to let it out
Without a question
But I can’t let you know
I can’t let it show
It cannot be told
Because if you know the effect you have over me
You’ll treat me worse than you already do
So I have to be strong
And no matter how much it hurts me on the outside
I have to keep my tears on the inside
Because I refuse to cry
