Mandy i will always be there for you no matter what. If u ever need to talk about that stuff just talk to me i will listen. I love you forever!! -audrey

Aww thats sad Grate poem u no, i feel theel the same way sometimes...:(

I really enjoyed readding this poem. great job!

This is a poem that really hits close to home. I am sorry that things are so miserable for you. What you said in your poem that you are still here because of your friend, HANG ON TO THAT!! Don't let anyone make things so bad that you choose to leave here. I know sweetie that it is hard to live in a house like that with all the yelling and the drinking and the screaming. I see that you are only 14, I am sure you have heard this before, but you have so much ahead of you and you can't let what is happening now take that away from you. It is bad, I validate that and I know you want out, and it is hard to think about the future, you think right now this is how things are and I know they are bad and you don't want to go through this and don't see a light, but Mandy there is. Trust me. I lived in a house like that and if you need to get out because it is so bad and you are going to go to the extreme of taking your life, then you get out NOW. There are places you can go, places that you can get help and you can be safe. I know you might not want to do that. I am being told all the time, if you are going to hurt yourself then you need to call crisis line or something like that and I just roll my eyes and think it is a huge joke, but seriously I know because I have had a friend that worked at a place like that and it is someone to talk to and someone who will listen. I will tell you this, something I don't share with many people only a few know, but when I was 14 I had to have an abortion because i was sexually abused from the age of 6-14, 14 was the last time that creep of my so called dad raped me, because i was at that age where I could get pregnant and did and had to have an abortion I live with that pain and I am trying to deal with it still today. It is a rough world, but if anything like that is happening to you, or physically or emotionally whatever is happening you don't have to do it alone. it sounds like you have a GREAT friend who will be there for you and let her/him in, and don't push back the pain that you feel, don't push it down, because it will not stay down. I have been in so much therapy and know that it does not stay down, it may not come back up and hit you a year from now or even 3 years from now, for me it was about 10 years later, so use the outlets, the safe outlets that you have and keep fighting, because there is so much out there for you to see sweetie, I promise you life is full of great things, hard times, but good times too. And I know you are only in high school and college or turning 18 may seem far away but it is great when you are out there on your own , your day will come. Don't miss it, please! You are a strong girl, and have a lot to give I can just tell from reading what you wrote to me and what you write in your poems. I would love to read more if you have more to share. if you want me to give you my e-mail address I can and you can talk to me whenever you want to. If you would like that just let me know I will check tomorrow if you write on one of my poems ok. Please, i am serious if you ever need to vent you can write me or I can always be here for you to talk to. I think it said you lived in Michagan, that is ok I can talk long distance, it won't be a probably for me if you want to. Just don't take your life away. Hang in there girl! I know it is touch, but so are you and you will get through this and remember you don't have to do it alone. Keep expressing yourself through your writings, it is helpful and keep talking to the people that you trust and that are there to listen to you. That is great medication for the pain that you are dealing with.
Your in my thoughts and prayers.
Love,
Paula
here is my e-mail just in case. I think I can send it through this. I don't know. but I will put it in code. ok.
percy is the first part and then right after that, no spaces put the numbers 816 and the rest is at h xxx oxxx txxx mail, then you should know the rest. the h and the o and the t are all one. Hope you get it.
Take kare of yourself, because you deserve the best. with love and care paula

This is so sad, but so beautifully conveyed! Nicely done, excellent poem!

This is so sad, but so beautifully conveyed! Nicely done, excellent poem!

Excellent poem sweetie. But even though things are bad at home, it's not everything. Whether or not you choose to believe it, it will change, so will you and your tolerance, your strength as well.
Hang on to Audrey, that is the most important thing, to have someone there you love.
And think about living for yourself hun...not because u want to get away..but live for you and who you can and want to be.
Sorry if this was really preachy..lol.
Take care
xoxoxo
PS: i read many of ur other poems btw but they're not letting me comment.
They are excellent..continue writing.

Wow!! You really got some talent Mandy! This is a really good poem!

No its not bad it really good!
m sorry you have ta go threw this with your family i no its not the way you should have ta live n it does suck but you have ta be strong for your self n the rest of your family..
keep your head up
good luck
always alana

Stay strong. It'll be alright just stay in touch with Audrey and you'll be alright. =]