Speechless

I sit here and wonder why I'm the person i am
yeah i had a bad past but its over and done with
why couldn't i just 4get it and move on
i keep thinking of what i put my family tho
to me all i am is a failure u might say its not true
but people cant help of what they think
i really think i stuff my life up all because of
cutting myself
i really hate myself for that
then people would ask why would you do it in the first place
well Ive kept a lot of pain inside of me
4 years i been tho hell
didn't say a thing to my family i didn't say anything to my
friend cause i didn't have any
but 4 years of pain kept inside of you its hard to
hold it in
I'm one of those type of people that are really shy
and never talks to people much
so thats why people decided to chose me
cause IL be an easy target for them
and it work
and i could never really trust people again
it took me 4ever to really trust some1 again
and then i found some really trusting friends
they would make sure I'm okay and always make me
welcome
i haven't got one bad thing to say about them
cause they have helped me to start again
and try to make things right
Ive only been with you guys for a term
Ive might of annoyed u a lot of times but
like i said u always made me feel welcome
what I'm saying is my life has been the worst
until i meet people that change it and help me get tho
even if u haven't notice it you've been the best
i just wish i could do something just to show u how much
you guys have helped me by being great friends