Sick of Wondering

You changed, I changed
Now nothing will ever be the same.
My eyes are dripping like the April rain
and thoughts of you consume my brain.

Why can't things be the way they were
When we were in love, everything was sure
Never did I worry, you were always there
Now I'm so scared, and I wonder if you care?

Its amazing how different things are now
I wonder why it happened, when and how
I miss you so much, but I can't let it show
I try to keep my feelings in, so you never will know.

It breaks me down more and more each day
We keep growing further apart, that, I hate to say
I love you just like I always have and will
But it seems like your love isn't there still.

I want to hold you and say everything is fine
But things are different now, you are no longer mine
I call and call and get your message each time
I can't bare the pain of you leaving me behind.

We fight, you yell, the cycles the same
I know it's part me, but your also at blame
I guess I just had us pictured differently in my head
Now my dreams are crushed, gone, shattered, and dead.

I need you now, like you needed me
But your not here to set me free
Why can't we go back to the past
Pretend everything is fine, and we will always last?
Just answer me, please take the time
Because I'm sick of wondering if you're still mine......