That night I remember very clearly;
How I embarrassed myself- completely!
I said once, I would never regret anything I told you,
But after that night, it was proven that wasn't true.
I said some things that I'll always regret;
Looking back to what was said.
Now, all I think about is how,
I can make it up to you...even now.
But I think...that I will not get a chance;
To show you that I am in a dead trance.
No more you, my friend...no more us!
Now I'm walking...without a purpose.
Honestly, I don't know why, you I adored;
Why I never felt this way...before.
I have friends that I've known for years,
And never were they this dear.
I don't know why...why it was,
Having you as a friend was a must.
I feel so bad that you chose to be gone,
And I wished that our friendship hadn't gone wrong.
Relying on some day that feeling will go away,
Or maybe, hopefully, you will call me one day.
Until then, I'll just live with my broken heart;
Because of me and my life, you were a part.
I keep thinking, remembering all our talks,
And when you'd call, into my life, you would walk.
Accompanying your conversations made my day;
Eager to hear...whatever you had to say.
Believe me sometimes it was hard,
To hide my excitement when you called.
But if I think about it...never mind,
Just knowing you ...that was fine.
What I'm trying tell you; what I meant to say is...
(Sharing our laughter is another thing I miss.)
We talked about things that made us laugh.
Trying to fight off your rampage... your wrath!
Remember in Adam's car, I locked his keys?
And how I laughed because you all made fun of me.
I remember what his car did to me that day;
And telling you about the bruise that wouldn't go away.
Knowing you were somewhere but you were still my friend,
Brought my loneliness and misery to an almost end.
Not because I could call you whenever;
But because just knowing you made everything better!
Now, not hearing your voice, I don't know what to do;
I even miss the fights...that didn't bother you.
I remember all those days the company I kept;
Driving home from work...I was set.
Now, I sit here...sad as can be,
Knowing... you've already...forgotten me.
I don't know why, my life you disrupted,
But in my heart, regret never interrupted.
Sometimes I wonder what did I do what did I see;
Why did I let you...get to me?!
What did YOU say; what did YOU do?!
I KNOW... it was just knowing you!
Trust me, I am not begging or asking for your forgiveness;
Because of the way I treated you I don't deserve happiness.
I am only reminiscing, saying what I feel,
And telling you my friendship was (is) for real!
So take it as you will; take it as you want to.
But having you as a friend...I forever thank you!
