Night time alone

The sky becomes black
as night time draws near
i sit huddled in a corner
drenched in fear

I'm scared of who i will be
when and if i choose to wake
confused about life
i don't no how much more i can take

tears are slowly filling my eyes
as i sit alone and cry
thoughts racing through my head
as i watch life slowly go by

i hate being by myself
i wish i could be out
at least then i wouldn't be thinking
and feeling this self doubt

i try so hard to ignore
the voices yelling in my head
telling me to reach for the blade
to end the days i dread

without even thinking
as if it were routine of mine
i grab a hold of my best friend
and rip away at my flesh
for a moment things seem fine

as i try to wipe away the blood
and straighten up my hair
i look into the mirror
at my legs i can no longer bare

being alone at night
the time i wish did not exist
i wish it could all be over
or next time it might be my wrists

one day ill work up the courage
ill just have to cut deep
end my life of misery
fall in one last heap