Soft Absence

It's not like I cannot see you
Everywhere I go
I catch a glimpse of you through a window
See your back turned, while you go
And leave me on the other side of the glass
With so many people, I just feel so alone
I don't belong in these big crowds
It hurts my ears to hear that never ending drone
When I belong with you
My Emily

Or I see you reflected in someone else's eye
Or their tears
As I watch them while they cry
Their probably crying for you too

Sometimes I think I feel your breath on the back of my neck
Feel you standing behind me
And turn around to see you
But you're never there.
And it's stupid I know
But I can feel you sometimes
And tell that you're laughing
That crazy messed up laugh of yours
And I'm not there to hear it
I'm still here, and I miss you

I know I never call you
But honestly I try
But every time I pick up the phone
I know I'll start to cry
Not much,
But I don't want you to hear me sad
Not when you're so happy in your new life
Or that's what you keep saying
But I'm not happy in mine, not anymore
Because I haven't got you

Now I have new friends and I love them too
But they will never be as wonderful as you.

I just have to tell myself I have a great life anyway
I'm so lucky and should be content
It's not as if you died, you only went away
And I'll see you again some day
Really really soon.
Because were best friends right?
And best friends never say goodbye

(for you emmy babe, i love you.)