One i think if this guy is treating you so good you should hold on with both hands and never let go and talk to him about the fact that u can't show emotion very well, two i think you should rate yourself higher because if you dont nobody will, 3 i hope you find true happiness because i no how it feels to feel they way you do then have it torn away from you. i mean with me the guy was at fualt but never the less. go with your heart. i think htis was good poem written from the heart about your feelings and they are expressed well. i can see that you fear to trust but at the same time want to find a way to let him no and keep him close. well good luck and take care.