Just One Cut

Just one cut,
Could end my life.
So somebody please,
Take away this knife.

I lie in my bed,
Crying about this terrible life.
Crying about what had just happened.
Crying about my past problems.
I lift up my sleeve,
And reveal to myself,
All the scars on my arm.
Some are from recent times,
And some from long ago.
Each one representing one of my dark, sorrowful moments.
I slowly slide my fingers down my arm,
And tremble each time I touch a scar.
I start to cry even harder,
As I remember all the reasons,
Why each cut is there.
I raise my head,
To see the knife lying on my desk,
And that tempting thought,
Runs through my head...

One more cut,
Just one.
Life is too hard and too painful.
Every day is the same thing.
Just one more cut,
Could set me free,
And I could finally be happy.
One more,
Just one more...

I stand up,
Staring straight at that knife.
I get so dizzy,
And my head starts to spin.
I walk over to my desk,
And grab the knife.
First, I lightly trace it over my wrist.
I start tracing harder and harder,
Until I see the blood.
Again, I repeat the same thing.
I stop,
And let go of the knife,
As I fall to the floor.
I just lie there,
And burst out crying.
A few minutes later,
I think to myself...

The only reason why I am always so depressed,
Is because I haven't cut deep enough.
Nobody would really care if I died.
Everyone hates me anyway...

I then sit up,
And grab the knife for the very last time.
I raise it high above my head,
And stab myself in the stomach with all my might.
I feel the unbearable pain,
But I know it won't last long.
My very last thought,
Before I take my last breath,
Is why did life have to be this way?
Maybe if I just talked to somebody,
Who would actually understand,
This never would have happened.
Is this for real?
I look down at my stomach,
To see the knife,
Sticking straight out of my body,
With a large puddle of blood at my knees.
I can not believe what I had just done.
Oh why?
If only I had been happy...

Just this one cut,
Ended my life.
Because nobody helped me,
Get rid of this knife.