The way I feel is so unreal
I lo0k out into the eyes of my beholder
And I see the un-thinkable
My sanity being questioned every day and my ability to be on this earth as normal being wondered
Labeled in this world of anger
Struggling for noting more then happiness
Fighting for nothing more then freedom
Running is the blo0d in me and out of me
Lashing out at the people around me
For trying to keep me down
Hold me in a place of un-worthiness in a place of un fair beliefs
Passionate about everything I do
Opening my eyes to everything I see
The waiting continues
Continues to stress me out
Continues to keep me thinking
I close my eyes once again to the painful truth
Longing to be invincible to it
Give me love and not tragedy
Being go0d always going un-noticed
And now rebellion taking place
Suddenly I am stuck down
This weight is more then a trillion pounds
Feelings that once were hidden are now expressed to you
Burning fire leading me to my past
I stare at it while it takes me back fast
Reality kills me more then anything
Imaginary always taking me to some f�d up place
Each day I try to find a reason
For me to live through each season
Tears roll down I cant try to stop
I guess things are worse then I though
I want to die but im scared
I don�t want to cry but im unprepared
If I left would anyone even care
When people need me im always there
But that doesn�t matter to any one here
Some times I wish you could be me for a day
Then maybe you would see how it feels to be unfree
Im holding on but im losing my grip
Fair not quite, skin not white sorry I didn�t turn out just right
Maybe im not smart but dumb
I use to cut myself just to be numb
And this feeling still so unreal
My voice not clear, joyful, or strong
My words not meaning much once im gone
Never tell me you love me if you really don�t care
Never say you have feelings if they aren�t even there
Days that once were the brightest blue
Are now stormy and not true
The worlds not a rainbow cant you see
Every ones not just like you and me
Who are you to judge me, if you do you better do it right
You don�t know anything about me
What�s on the out side is all you care to see
Before you begin to pick me apart
Why don�t you lo0k inside your heart
Do you really dislike me for being me
Or are you upset with the type of person you tend to be
And still you see this is how I feel
As I lo0k into the eyes of my beholder
Everything is still so unreal
