TERMS I LOST

I have come to terms
that I will never hold you again
For the time we spend is no more then nightmares
I seem to call your name while I still sleep
Questions past and they go
But in my heart they stay
Cause you are all I think about as days long go
For tears I can't cry I write words that have no meaning but to myself
Love,happiness, and even sex I lose to my actions
A sword throw to my heart goes deeper and deeper
For this is my cause for the terms I lost and for still loving you
And I have to come to terms with that
Cause if not my heart will become no more then a black soul
And it will be from the terms I lost