Just Judge Me Now!

Written wen i was 18;

All i am is a life in need
All i want is a family
A soul called mom
And a soul called dad
This is wat i want to have

Its everynight i cry for love
Its everyday i pray to die
Its all the time i try and shove
All my problems right behind

This life of hell i want to leave
The pain im in u wouldnt believe
It bleeds alot and leaves its scars
And waits for death, but knows its far

Im all alone and been for years
Im scared to live for the next year
To see more moms who love and care
It hurts to know that mines not there

I smile wen i afto
And break down wen i dont
I know i have to be strong
But i also know i wont

A scary thought to think
Would be famlyless for life
For one that leads to fear
Would be turning 25

You dont know wat i've lived
Nor the pain i hold inside
You dont think the way i do
You just judge me from outside

So dont tell me that u know me
Nor want to give ur love
Cause i've lived for 19 years
And know a bit to much

You'll never understand
Who i am or wat ill be
So dont think u have the right
To sit there and just judge me!