Why

Why did i think this was my way out? Why did I think all my pain and trials were over? Why oh why did I still love you when you caused me to stay up the whole night crying? And how could you love me after all we've been through?

I thought I knew what you wanted from me, so i gave it my all. But now I find that I am slipping. As the pain stains my cheeks, the tears turn into blood; now I'm literally pouring myself out for you. It flows day and night, and as I lye in my bed I tear myself up inside. Why, why won't you go away? Why, oh why can't I get you out of my mind?

Why did I ever believe in you? Why has our love run dry? You said if I really loved you, I'd let you go. Well now I have, and where has that gotten me?

I thought you were the one, so i held onto you. But now I see that I was just fooling myself: you were but a reflection of what i wanted to see...my true love. My hands have become wet and clammy and all I think of is you. I think about cutting myself, but I can't bring myself to do it. Why, oh why won't you leave me alone? Why oh why won't you just disappear?

Why oh why cant we start over? Please oh please I want to believe you right from the start. Just give me one more chance and you'll see I'm the one for you.

You took a piece of my heart, a piece you didn't ask for. And now as I begin to slowly drown in my tears, I find that I cannot bear to see your face no more, you say you just want to be friends? Well I can't just be friends. I'm sorry it's not possible. Why did I pursue this, when I knew you were only going to hurt me in the end? Why did I try and love you, when I don't even know if you ever really loved me.

Yes you said you loved me. But don't guys always know what to say? I guess it was cause I believed in you. I had faith that you were the one I was suppose to be with. But still again and again I cried and tried to justify everything so as to get all I needed...true love. For as much as I want you, I know I can't have you. And all I have left to say to you is...I'm not looking at you, I'm looking past you.

**dedicated to my bff SARA..sry about you bad relationship! i love you babe!! please comment** XX LISSA