One Last Curtain Call

I don't know whats wrong
But I'm losing weight
Is this some strange sort
Of obvious fate?

I cant keep my food down
Or I just don't eat at all
Standing takes too much effort
I cant even crawl.

All I want to do is sleep
Lay down and close my eyes
Are the cuts on my arms
Really that much of a surprise?

You've seen them
For the last two years
And then no one ever
Shed any tears.

I feel like I'm getting better
But I look at myself and know I'm lying
Because that girl in the mirror
Her dry eyes are crying.

Medication should fix this
But it feels like its cut so deep
It wont leave me
No matter how long I weep.

My hope has faded away
Even though you don't think so
To eternal sleep
Is where my soul wishes to go.

I sit here for once
A smile on my face
There are no tears
Not a single trace.

I guess I finally know
This is the beginning of the end...