Crazy in love

I desired it so,
Till this day I think of what i missed, I thought I was confused then heather helped me find the way so I could be free to love my one true love with out hurting her. I NOW am ready but shes already gone and unwilling to turn back. I understand her boundaries and her unwillingness to forgive. She waited for me and now I am ready but the train left station. I left her heart cold with no regards to anyones feelings not even my own I am numb. numb to all feelings feelings of love feelings of pain. I loved her sop much I was numb, men have numbed me so I gave up to find something new, I did and she wanted me to but in a quick blink of an eye she was gone. No m,ore waiting no more pain only the pain dwelling in my empty numb soul.