how come

...how come..
how come i look at you...
with tears in my eyes....
how come i look at you...
and just want to die....
i wish ...
i could look you straight in the eye...
and then tell you how much i care..
but i'm afraid
i'm afraid you'd see something something no1 else will...
i'm afraid you would see right thru me...
and see me for hoo i am....
i'm afraid you'd see all the pain i suffer...
and how i make my life look perfect...
if i looked you in the eye...
i'd set myself up for a fall....
a long fall, a fall off a mountain...
a mountain i had to climb...
it took me years...
but i reached the top atlast...
and if i let my guard down...
i'm afraid you'll leave me....
at the bottom in tears...
sooo plz help me...
to rid all these fears...
*ali*
d.e.t.i.c.a.t.e.d. to S.O.V.S.